If there is one thing that I would not expect for myself to do, that would most probably be letting the public know my feelings for you. But since I am already writing this, might as well make the most out of it. I am just hoping that you are able to read this though – and I’m sincerely hoping that you’ll know that this one is for you.
I like you. No, wait! I am even thinking that I already love you. It’s been months and my feelings for you is still the same – I get butterflies in my stomach every single time I see you and honestly, it’s funny. It’s funny because no matter how hard I try to be good, you just can’t seem to notice me. And in as much as I wouldn’t want to be disappointed, I unfortunately am. I am disappointed because things are not falling into place and this is not how I envision” US “to be – just friends.
You make me laugh, you make me go crazy and you make me be in my usual self when you’re around. I even thought that you’re the person I would want to go home with, everyday. But the way we look at ourselves would never be an inch apart. You will always look at skinny girls who would not eat just to please men, those who would put on makeup just to cover their imperfection. You would rather be with someone who would always pretend to be someone that they are not – and this is one of the reasons as to why I am slowly trying to drift away from this nightmare.
I am not ending this daydream of mine because I want to. I am doing this because I have to. Loving you from the corner of a four-walled room is unhealthy. I just want to let you know that this is the end of my journey with you. I know that you do not know how I feel for you but am wishing that you’ll now realize that I do. Even if you’re not the one I would most likely end up with, I would still want to say “Thank you!”
Thank you for making me laugh so damn hard. Thank you for keeping me sane during my insane days. Thank you for adding color in my life. And most importantly, thank you for leaving a trace in my heart – my love for you may be gone but it’s not going anywhere.
It was nice knowing someone like you.
So long, feelings.